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.idk Describes How Losing His Mother Influenced "IWASVERYBAD"

Prince George’s County, MD – Many artists cite writing lyrics as a cathartic experience. It’s a way to purge all those pent up emotions that can sometimesbecome overwhelming. For .idk (formerly known as Jay IDK), his writing process is almost otherworldly. It also helped him through one the most difficult times in his life the loss his mother in 2016.

“It’s kinda like a out–body experience a lot the time, where it’s like somebody else is doing some the stuff,” .idk explains to HipHopDX. “‘Cause I even listen to the music, sometimes there’s a sign, and I’m surprised at some the things that I’m able to write and say because I almost underestimate how smart I can be with certain lyrics. Because like I said, it’s out–body experience. You feel me?”

Sincestepping onto the scene with his Sex, Drugs and Homework mixtape in 2014, he continued to push his own creative barriers until Adult Swim took notice. While working on his next album,IWASVERYBAD,the London-born, Maryland-bred MC wrestled with the grief he was feeling after his mother passed.

“I was kinda just figuring things out and trying to understanding myself when I was working on it,” he says. “I was in … I don’t wanna say a dark place, but not a bright place. I had just lost my mom and had a feeling that felt like a cloud over your head that you can’t get rid . Even if it’s like a bright day, it feels like something is wrong. You know what I mean? So, that’s kinda how the music was starting to feel. Everything was either aggression or just kind gloomy to an extent.”

The cover art for IWASVERYBADis telling on its own. It shows the back the 25-year-old MC in an orange D.O.C. jumpsuit with a white dove sitting on his shoulder, which is intended to represent his mother.

While losing a loved one is enough to push anyone over the edge, .idk hasavoided numbing the pain with drugs and alcohol.

“I think everyone should kinda stay away from those things, but it’s hard to say that because some people don’t know how to cope with life like everyone else,” he explains. “Some people have to really, really find other ways to escape, you know?Luckily, I have music, but not everyone has music.”

But he does admit he’s powerless over two things.

“I’m addicted to one thing fucking buying clothes and shit, eating food,” he says.“So that’s two things, sorry laughs]. Those are the two things. But other than that, I’m cool.”