During a recent interview, Busta Rhymes reflected on his achievements. He also opened up about some of the guilt that he deals with due to his â€œshortcomingsâ€ along the way. The artist reveals that missing out of some major milestones in his kidsâ€™ lives has made an impact on him. â€œLiving with that for a long time is hard,â€ he explains. â€œBecause itâ€™s like when and how can I fix it? And you never get an answer to that.â€œ
â€œWhen me and Chris Brown performed â€˜Look At Me Nowâ€™ at BET when Lil Wayne did not do it with us, I missed my sonâ€™s high school graduation, my oldest sonâ€™s,â€ he began. â€œI came home from that and he was upset, and Greenhouse was still open. I threw a party for him at Greenhouse and I had Jim Jones perform, and Ace Hood perform, and I performed. He was happy about the party but he still wasnâ€™t happy about me missing his high school graduation.â€
Busta Rhymes Has Lived To Regret It
â€œI lived with that sh*t for a long time,â€ Busta Rhymes then shares. â€œIt didnâ€™t matter how much I wanted to say sorry, I knew that it wouldnâ€™t be enough.â€ He continues, revealing that he hopes his children can forgive him for ways he hasnâ€™t lived up to their expectations. â€œYou hope that one day they understand that the sacrifice that was made was the lesser of the two evils,â€ he says.
He later went on to weigh the pros and cons of his career, or falling back to be with family. â€œYouâ€™re damned if you do, youâ€™re damned if you donâ€™t,â€ he explains. He claims that though itâ€™s difficult to grapple with the guilt of missing moments in his familyâ€™s life, heâ€™s got to do what heâ€™s got to do. Busta Rhymes says that he does what he can to make sure theyâ€™re taken care of, and all he can do is just hope that one day they get it.